The Sea Cucumber in the Paper Armchair

Homeschooling can look like a lot of things.  It can look like Saturday morning cartoons, a day at the park, a day reading to your kids, a day baking with your kids, a day baking for your kids, a day doing laundry with your kids interspersed with readings from Harry Potter, a day revolving around the hour that your family will go to the humane society to read to cats, a day revolving around the hour that you'll find yourselves at the library looking for books about cats or staring a cat.  It could look like a day spent creating a board game for your family to play based on pokemon characters and real animals and real people.  And economics.  And world history.  And also a little bit of quantum physics. 

Of course, it's easy to incorporate quantum physics into your homeschooling.  I think quantum physics comes naturally to many children.  

Last week part of our homeschooling looked like talking about writing new stories.  One of those stories was named "The Sea Cucumber in the Paper Armchair."

Polyglots, routines and tsunamis

My little family of four went to dinner at a friends house on New Year's Eve. These friends have two kids who go to a local charter school, the other family has three kids going to a different local charter school. As the evening unfolded, my husband and I heard about the endeavors and accomplishments of the other two family's children. Three of them are polyglots learning Spanish, one speaks fluently, two are excelling in Mandarin. One plays violin, another plays cello and has a great talent for it. Two are amazing artists - their work covers the walls of their home. There are self portraits in the styles of influential artists whose names I don't even know.
A growing sense of anxiety builds in my chest. My mind takes me on an involuntary trip to the "you suck's," "just give up's," "you'll never be good enough's," and  "I told you so's."
I think about how my kids hate to write and how our fragile routine has been washed away by the tsunami called "The Holidays." This leaves me building our homeschooling back up through the spoils and ruins of Christmas that have no place yet in our home - while dragging the kids along. No mention yet of groceries, meal planning (ha!), actually making meals, laundry, dishes, laundry, cleaning and family "togetherness" time.
Really? Mandarin?
Our friends were clearly proud of their children and excited to share what was going on in their lives. No one was trying to drag anyone else down, that was my own doing. In the end it was a good push in the pants, a wake up call. I had a renewed vision of what was possible and I followed that vision.
Our routine is back and I'm even more committed to homeschooling than I was before. Not to unschooling, and not to the meeting of arbitrary milestones, but to our little family, our routine, our kids, their growth, and to our daily grind of small, seemingly inconsequential things that build themselves around us to create what turns into our life. Even laundry.

Nine things I have done to improve my life

1. Meditate every day.  I started with 5 minutes, moved on to seven, then 15, now 30 minutes a day.
2. Exercise almost every day
3. Read every day
4. Write every day
5. Tell myself, "I love myself."
Everyday

6. Stopped drinking alcohol (at least for now).
I honestly can't imagine NEVER drinking alcohol again, but for now it feels great to not drink.

7. Taking myself seriously as an artist/writer.
8. Stopped taking myself so seriously.
9. Got counseling from a great counselor.

Seasons

We're at the Santa Fe Children's Museum working with magnets.  I love places like this.  They make me feel like I'm doing homeschooling "right" - especially when I feel like our learning is aimless.  Our life looks so different from the lives of our friends with kids.  While they adhere to the school schedule, our lives seem to gently swing from season to season. There are no high pressure tests or stacks of homework to get through.  So there is no need for decompression at the end of every week or school year.  It's such a different tempo from the one I grew up in that sometimes I get nervous that we're not doing enough, or that we're missing something.

But we're not missing anything. No matter what we decide to do we can only live one life at a time.  We each have our own reality that we know to be true.  Childhood is when we begin to build our beliefs about the world, which create our realities. You don't need school to do that.

five things I love about homeschooling

So, five things I love about homeschooling, and their dark side.

1. We get to make our own schedule.
On the dark side:
I've never had to make my own schedule, I've always had either school or jobs to do that for me. I just used my given schedule to create a life within. Now everything can happen all the time. Chess at 9 pm, wine at noon, groceries at 10 am on Tuesdays at Costco, where I get to say hi to Earl. Honestly, I would love to just read, write, talk, and play music all day, but I think my kids should spend some time outside and with people. So we do, but we don't have much of a schedule. Sometimes it's a good thing, sometimes it feels like I've been floating for too long.

2. We get to focus on relationships rather than content.
On the dark side:
Sometimes I wonder if my kids are "behind." Then I realize that whatever they don't know they can make up for with their love and need for learning. Nobody knows everything, which is so exciting- there's always something around the corner to look forward to.

3. My kids get to spend most of their days doing mostly what they want.
On the dark side:
I want my kids to know "what they're made of." How are they going to learn that without going through some adversity? Today my 8 yo was near tears because he couldn't find his Minecraft Redstone book. Of course, when he found it he followed its instructions for the 10th time to make a tnt cannon. And this time it worked.

4. Once again, we get to focus on relationships rather then content.
On the dark side:
I never spent this much time with my parents growing up. I'd only spent this amount of time with people who were paid to take care of me. It has been a steep learning curve in figuring out how to interact with my own children for 16 to 20 hours a day. And also I go a little crazy. But then I take the long view, I work out, or I meditate, or I drink some wine.

5. My kids are very self directed.
On the dark side:
My kids are very self directed, whether I like their direction or not.
Toilet paper on the floor because it's a project, Legos impossibly scattered, skipping during dinner...

No one should skip during dinner.

Every Day

Make every day a work of art.
Spend some amount of time doing something to push yourself or doing something just for the lovely enjoyment of it.  Everyday.

Make yourself uncomfortable, or surprise yourself, or follow through on a ridiculous idea.

Love yourself more than you did yesterday.  Love everyone more than you did yesterday.

"Everything is vibrating with joy and is kept together by love."
And why wouldn't it be?  Fear, anger, hate - they all separate, isolate.  Love and joy opens, pulls together.

The fact that I fell asleep last night and woke up this morning is a kind of a miracle.
I can consciously pull air into my lungs through my nostrils.  Or not.  Either way, I keep breathing.  

Asking Questions

One reason unschooling works for our family is that I've never loved the idea of following a set curriculum.  Instead, I like to ask questions, listen to my kids' questions about the world, and look for answers, which usually lead to more questions.  Until we get to a point where the answers are more like theories or opinions - of which there may be many.  Then we can start coming up with our own theories based on what we know.  Sometimes we can test our theories, sometimes we just discuss them.

Some Examples:
Ollie was interested in the Grand Canyon.  He had heard it was a huge hole in the ground and that lots of people visited it.  His questions were:
"How did the canyon get made?"  and, "Why do so many people visit it?"

We started researching the Grand Canyon online, in books and asking family members.  We did and erosion project with different colors of sand in layers - I had read about it and it sounded like fun to me.  The kids got a kick out of it too.

We also did a project involving freezing and thawing wet rocks repeatedly to see how they changed.

We read about metamorphic, sedimentary and igneous rocks and tried to identify them based on what we read.

 We visited our Natural History Museum and found more rocks.  Finally, we went to the Grand Canyon.  We actually saw and talked about the layers, about what minerals could make the different colors in the rocks, saw a movie about the first known European expedition to canoe it, and talked to staff who knew so much about its history.

We got a lot out of these "lessons," but there was no set curriculum.  We had questions and we found different ways to look for answers.  I know that not everyone can take a week-long field trip, but you can still get a lot out of asking questions.

Around the same time Julian was interested in the Eiffel Tower.  He wanted to know, "Why was it built," "What was it made of,"  "How did they build it," and "How big is it?"  In looking for the answers to these questions, we found out that the guy Eiffel (who designed the tower) also designed and oversaw the construction of the inner skeleton of the Statue of Liberty.